The reason for writing this is that I might have encountered God in a dormitory during my student years in 1989. She was one of the students living there, an overbearing figure who dominated the group. My life until then had been a struggle, so the dormitory seemed like a paradise to me. She made my life miserable and made me leave the dormitory, telling me that I didn’t fit in the group, was rude and didn’t show my feelings. There was something off about Her. And She connected with me like no one else ever has. It also seemed that She didn’t care what would happen to me, as if I were nothing in Her eyes. A student from another dormitory who was in a similar position had committed suicide around the same time.

She cast me out as I didn’t fit in in Her little Paradise. I was autistic and barely aware of the consequences of my actions. Yet, I felt that something was wrong with me, so it wasn’t hard to make me feel at fault. It also didn’t help that I was a simple rural guy with little life experience, making me unfit for an intellectual environment where people discussed art, literature, and feelings. Afterwards, I realised I had fallen in love with Her, which made me feel even more miserable. Yet, the disaster turned out to be a life-changing event. Even though I couldn’t help myself, I felt there were no excuses for causing harm. My aim was to become as wise as a serpent and as harmless as a dove. I resolved my issues and became a better person.

Since then, I never saw Her again, found a wife and had a son. Yet, over the years, a few strange events transpired, reminding me of Her. Nineteen years later, in 2008, I had a psychosis, in which She appeared to make telepathic contact. She had a message for me: ‘I am Eve, and you are Adam, and together we will recreate Paradise.’ It suggested that She has a romantic interest in me. I figured that Jesus had a similar connection with Mary Magdalene, and that She had made him believe that Adam was Eve’s son. I didn’t want to be mistaken, because messiah claimants are mostly delusional, so I checked whether it could be true. Whether it is true, time will tell.

Nothing happened. I continued with my life, while trying to figure out what to do if it were true. I have once emailed Her, asking Her what this was about. She denied being God or having anything to do with the events in my life. Now, that is very well possible. Yet, whatever the truth may be, my discovery seems meaningful, which made me proceed with this research. This world seems a joke, and we exist to amuse God. If I am the messiah, I am just an actor in this play. You might save yourself with my guidance, only because it could be the story’s plot.

Paradise will be what God desires, not what we want. I try to guess God’s intentions. As they say, in the land of the blind, the one-eyed man is king. I have been wrong countless times, but my errors seem to concern details rather than principles. So, this theory of God being a woman who married Jesus and Muhammad seemed right from the beginning, but the historical investigation into what happened took more than 15 years, and included countless revisions. A similar process followed my discovery of an interest-free financial system. So, I can be wrong, and often am, but at least God makes me make my guesses, and you can only find solutions if you look in the right direction.

To think we are approaching the end time requires taking a very particular perspective. If you live in China, India, or the Islamic world, this era does not seem particularly end-times-ish. Yet, in the West, things do seem to fall apart. If you live elsewhere, you probably see things differently. If these are not the end times, it is the end of 500 years of Western dominance. What many in the West see as social progress, such as human rights, may soon regress. The West has shaped the world as it is today. If Hegel was right, and social progress coming from a dialectic duel between progressivism and conservatism will lead us to Paradise, we have arrived at the end of the line. Even the Chinese Communist Party has built its vision on Hegel’s ideas. There is either social progress and a coming Paradise, or there is no point to history. It seems we are about to find out.

In Eden, Eve and Adam lived simple lives in harmony with nature. That may also lie ahead for us. That will be the New Religion, at least if we all embrace these wonderful tidings. Overall, it can be good, but that doesn’t mean it will all be nice and dandy. And so, before you get carried away by the idea of entering God’s kingdom, picture life in Eden. The Talking Heads already did,

Here we stand
Like an Adam and an Eve
Waterfalls
The Garden of Eden
Two fools in love
…
There was a shopping mall
Now it’s all covered with flowers
…
If this is paradise
I wish I had a lawnmower
…
We used to microwave
Now we just eat nuts and berries
You got it, you got it
…
Don’t leave me stranded here
I can’t get used to this lifestyle

Talking Heads, (Nothing but) Flowers

Latest update: 28 November 2025

Featured image: The First Kiss of Adam and Eve. Salvador Viniegra (1891). Public Domain.